Love in or out

It makes me feel funny, how earlier I started hating people, the environment, how I wanted to stay alone and enjoy with no one else but me. It took me time to digest the fact that I needed some time for myself for my growth and development and now that I had it all, I was again surrounded by people. The fun fact being this time I observed the love and happiness that took stand by them, the purpose to enjoy, to giggle and make fun of each other, an occassion where everyone praised each other yet I was there standing alone, observing the happiness, blissful for the time, yet unable to be the part of the group, because this time, I was alone. Waiting for someone to call and include me because I actually lost the guts to call myself in, rejected by my own self! Saddened that the reason was me, but this time I learnt the importance of people around me. Its good to make them happy, to pamper their happiness, to stay together when in need, to support the times required and to chase this bond forever! Yes, this was love - true, unconditional, required, hated, anguished but love for people. This is humanity! And if I don't return, then I will be hell lost.