Little did I know...

I am happy and contended and life is beautiful with new challenges and new ambitions that crosstalk my path. I had learnt so many new and wonderful things, tried ever adventurous challenges, with friends I was never before, with time I always called out, received again, with pride never actually mine. I was excited and was glad to cut that mustard. I set myself straight! And hey, this was all real!

With friends I was enjoying realtime, I was in love with, waited for the weekends like never before, worked out hard throughout the week to not throw a backseat for myself, so that I see myself deserving that weekend. Woah! I started wishing things. And hey, this felt real!

I think I am in love, with my life, and yes with myself! I am glad to have been discovering myself like never before, to have esteem for what I had, for what I have, not afraid of losing anything anymore but more confident of having this life. I think the time that taught me so much in the past and the time that is with me today is worth a try, a lifetime. I started falling in love with myself, with people around me who made me understand my worth, not by mere motivational speeches, but by showing what I love, by proving that things are for real and that no one's faking.

I still doubted, not yet ready to feel the world, to learn about its ebb's and very much scared of its currents. I believed that it has always shocked everyone and yes it will me as well, scared and ran again and again away from the gifts it was worth from me. I was losing time, never realized. I knew it all that it was all real!

Little did I know that behind all these stage shows was my little heart beating for another wonderful one. Little did I realized that I started feeling for someone, somebody who has chimed in a remark of trust, truthfulness and love. I have always steered things clear, not really minding things and their statuses. I was just on my walk of toughness, learning my way through boldness.

I am today, on the edge of the seat, wondering if I can be the girl of his dreams, knowing that he deserves someone better, and still hoping if I could stand the chance of being the one. Little did I know that in this war I had lost equally precious things that I am willing to power upon today. Looks beyond real, yes it is, little did I...

I am happy and contended and life is beautiful but feels incomplete today, without love.