Symptoms of WITHDRAWAL
Downroad to 2015, when I moved to Mumbai with a heavy heart, depressed and repressed with life, with a confusion that would happen next. Will Mumbai be a happy chapter or will it further drain me. I never realised that I was draining already. I was lost and the reality of broken life was just terrifying me. Well all this while I never realized that I was losing memory, that I'd stop thinking or valueing people and that I was just moving without any proper construct to path forward. It was real soon, in 2021 I'd say, that I realized the real time, the presence, the world around me, and the value of life.. but feels like its too late! I hardly remember that was it 2015 or even earlier, because I am uncertain on most of my memories. Have I lost them or are they there, just hidden somewhere. I don't know, this feeling smashes me off. I'm scared of today and I am scared of tomorrow. When I meet people, I really force myself to be involved, I really feel put off and that I ...